Just when I get back to blogging it is a bad week. Sorry guys!
I think I was so sick and then worked very hard to get ready for the show that I let down, so I have been kind of anxious and low this week. Very "in my head" thinking and contemplative about the normal crap - business, homeschool, money, kids, husband, life.
Business is mainly about marketing. Boring stuff unless you are into it.
Homeschool - Oh, I am struggling so badly with this. I am burnt out. At the beginning of the week, I had 1 full week of school to grade and then plan the next 6 weeks (and whole summer) while working 16 hours a day and having a show for 2 days!
Monday morning - I did not want to get out of bed. I did though, but literally just sat there. I finally got around to cleaning up our bathroom and bedroom and starting laundry. I told the kids we were not doing school that day.
Tuesday - It was worse! Everything was Mt. Everest. I cried. I got my office organized, worked on some orders, cooked dinner. No homeschool.
Wednesday (today) - Got up, dreading, but better. I sat down for coffee and said you know - there is no reason we have to finish all the books this year. It was a tough year and the fact that we ARE getting done with history, made it through 2 writing books each and on the 3rd, made it through 1 word study book and on the 2nd, made it through 80% of the math books and 1 semester of logic. We limped through science, but they are getting it through a class next year. You know what? When history is done, I am closing the year.
Saxon is an intense math and 2 years of Algebra includes 1 year of Geometry, so if we do it in 3 years, it is not a problem. That made me feel SO MUCH BETTER! I had no idea how heavily that was weighing on me!
So, I go to get in the truck to run to the store for fabric on an order. Truck doesn't start - typical. I am pretty sure it is the battery. DH will replace it tonight - and I will go to the store either tonight late or tomorrow early. I am putting off homeschool this week so I can take my time in planning the rest of the 2017/2018 school year.
WOW - really, that was bothering me so much!
one husband......four kids......debt......sewing...... saving......cooking......yoga......sweet......chaos......life......
I have had those days when I got up and just sat on the side of the bed. I hope you feel better soon. It is good to come to the end of frustration with a good plan!
ReplyDeleteThat it is my friend - that it is!
DeleteI think it's great that you recognize it and always come up with plans to get through (or around!) it. Sounds like you have a bit much on your plate, so glad you can re-adjust.
ReplyDeleteThank you! I do have a lot on my plate right now. It will take a while before it gets better, but we are working on it.
DeleteOthers are probably thinking this so I will say it: Maybe you should consider public school. I know, I know, you don't want to.
ReplyDeletePublic school is not an option - we live in a county that has the worst public school in the state. Bad education wise - 25% drop out, 60% on free lunches, low test scores, only 10% go on to college. We live on the very edge of a VERY poor county. It will change as building continues, but right now, with my gifted children - not an option.
DeleteAnd we cannot afford private school. Yes, we should have thought through this more before we moved - hind sight is ALWAYS 20/20. We were doing good then. We just have not found our groove yet. I am taking them to classes for 2 subjects - it is a start.
DeleteSaw your comment on the public schools in your area. Just to tease out the challenge/concern with sending your kids to the public school, is it a) they just won't learn anything b) it's dangerous c) you're worried they would get into trouble or d) all of the above. I ask, because if it's a), you may be able to supplement with some at home school work while still sending them to public schools for the majority of the day. Anyway, just a thought, given how much you're struggling with it for now.
ReplyDeleteNo, I don't even want to put them in that situation. It would be like going to work all day - in emotional turmoil and then coming home to have your brain challenged.
DeleteI agree with Jennifer. And your "solution" to a), is no solution at all--it's just plopping her kids in less than ideal environment simply to have someplace to plop her kids. That's neither optimal in terms of education OR parenting.
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