I feel like the world just keeps crashing on me over and over and over again. I think my nerves are so frayed that every little thing is just like Mt. Everest!
Today, Rain - so no work on the house. No concrete.
Times for DD camp changed so I had to cancel an appointment I really need and now it looks like I will not be able to reschedule for 2 or more weeks.
I have to go clean out my grandmother's house next week.
I also have to move next week.
I am not liking how small our master bathroom is or how small the island has to be in the kitchen - basically walk spaces are too narrow - which bothers me greatly because now we cannot do anything about it and I wish our builder, the architect - someone would have explained this to me. Size is so abstract when it is 2D.
Our awning on the RV is going.
My back is out (appointment I needed) and it is not getting better, worse. My leg is going numb again. If I start falling, that means I will be back in a wheelchair - this sucks.
I am getting heart palpitations daily.
The builder is getting on my very nerve - absent mostly, condescending - but that is probably my perception through my negative filter.
This show is overwhelming the hell out of me.
I just want all of this to be over so I can have a home and normalcy again. Though the building has been going on for 4 months, we have been going full throttle since January. I am tired - I cannot sleep - not in 2 days. I try, but it is not happening.
I am looking forward to being in a house, but since I now have to clean out my grandmother's place - it is delayed about a week.
My outlook will be better if I can get some sleep - let's all hope it comes tonight.